Giving up social network!

Today is my first day without social network and hook up app. I decided to quit it yesterday after being blocked by someone I believe that I have falled for. I believe that this is the first time in my life I actually experience what is called "heart broken". And gosh I listen to "Only love can hurt can hurt like this" by Poloma Fairh many times but never actually feel any words of the song until now. Every single words in the songs just like "a knife cut through my soul". And for fuck sage I hate it, I hate what I feeling and i hate to be in this situation and yes it is fucking difficult to get through but what can I say. I need to get through and I will get through it. At the beginning everything I know it will end up like this but sex is addictive and no I cannot resist a "my type" kinda person even though it is clearly that person doesn't want anything else and can just switch different guys for different experience. So now I am ended up hear broken, fuckig down and keep thinking about the shit that I have done and all the sex that we had. However, thanks god I realise that I am still a guy with a heart and the hook up game is not for me neither the social network chaos. Today I quit them for the not the first time but will be the long time. Today I did it and I gonna use this blog to update myp progress and achievement every day to become a better person and finding the right person for myself. Today I didn't facebook or hook up apps. Today I still feel shit but I didn't come back the old shit!