4th day. Facebook is activated :(

But I did make it to 4th day with social hook up apps. I need to activate facebook for an application I am developing require social logging. But I am gonna try to deactivate it today. 

But I feel really well and work really hard at the gym. Also talking a cute person keep saying I am sexy but honestly j don't know where it gonna go as that person is still so young with a kid mind.

3rd day. Sing to cure the pain babe😚

Was at the gym and received the text from a number that I didn't save asked whether I wanted to meet up for som "fun". I replied no with explaination and an coffee meet up offer however, it seems that coffee is not as interested as my dick so no reply. Shame as coffee is one of the top 10 british people like lol.

3rd day now. Not too bad at all. I didn't do much work but got something done and had a great workout session. The memory about that person is fading and the pain is not that bad. It is human nature I guess, we heal ourself quickly and also learn quickly to avoid hopefully.

2nd of no FaceBook and Social Hook Up

I made myself to the second day without Facebook and social hook up apps. It is difficult the whole day I look at my phone my iPad and my computer screen feeling like nothing to do but don't want to put my self to the old track again. I didn't do any much work for my project either but I did I make it to the second day! The pain yesterday is fading away and I also delete all the related things of that person on my phone. I don't want to see it, don't want it to remind me of the person doesn't deserve me. After next week that person gonna fly to Holland and totally disappear here but thinking about it still hurting but I won't let it stop my life and my great future ahead. 

Giving up social network!

Today is my first day without social network and hook up app. I decided to quit it yesterday after being blocked by someone I believe that I have falled for. I believe that this is the first time in my life I actually experience what is called "heart broken". And gosh I listen to "Only love can hurt can hurt like this" by Poloma Fairh many times but never actually feel any words of the song until now. Every single words in the songs just like "a knife cut through my soul". And for fuck sage I hate it, I hate what I feeling and i hate to be in this situation and yes it is fucking difficult to get through but what can I say. I need to get through and I will get through it. At the beginning everything I know it will end up like this but sex is addictive and no I cannot resist a "my type" kinda person even though it is clearly that person doesn't want anything else and can just switch different guys for different experience. So now I am ended up hear broken, fuckig down and keep thinking about the shit that I have done and all the sex that we had. However, thanks god I realise that I am still a guy with a heart and the hook up game is not for me neither the social network chaos. Today I quit them for the not the first time but will be the long time. Today I did it and I gonna use this blog to update myp progress and achievement every day to become a better person and finding the right person for myself. Today I didn't facebook or hook up apps. Today I still feel shit but I didn't come back the old shit!

Is the world getting better or worst?!

I have just got back from the gym, had a massive piece of steak (yeah hooo) and now I am feeling bored but I don't want to my research project (Oh come on, I am having months to finish it). So decided to start my blog again. And today topic is wether the world is getting better or worst. Lets I start with a little bit of an introduction to why I suddenly want talk a bout this "debatable" topic.

Yesterday, I was bored again (Hell on earth Ethan is always bored). I went on my whats app and see if there are anyone can save me from my boredom. Suddenly, I saw Adam nearly in the end of my whats app recent chat list. The last time I spoke to him was like a few years ago. Gosh he has beard now which is quite intresting haha (see his current picture).

So we start talking about everything that normal 2 peoples that have not seen each other for years. Things like job, friends, family, and etc. He also asked me about my study and job blah blah blah. So we were talking and talking then we come to current breaking news which the UK will vote the exit EU then we agued about social depression, economy and politics. In the end he made the strong agument that the world is getting worst.

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I would say that the UK is great and it full of opportunity and success. 

It's not

It was a beautiful industrial country. Now i see it going to ruin. 

Manufacturering jobs in the last 20years are slowly going  as it cheaper labour. So now many are out of work. Those in work are not even earning the living wage. So are not spending money apart from the essentials to survive. 

Shops are closing down, pubs and community centres are closing down. Poundlands and Aldi's are replacing them. 

The rich are getting richer and the poor are getting poorer. 

As a result the poor man turning to crime as a means to get out of his/her situation. 

There used to be community spirit and my mom would never lock the front Door. 

We are all oblivious to what's actually happening around us and it also the same in America.

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If It were 2 years ago, I would have agreed with him and we would be in the same negative boat about the world. However, as I have gone through many different stages of my life as well as have learnt how to improve my happiness together with education I have recieved by many amazing people. I am super possitive about the world now and will be and so I argued with him that the world is definitely getting better. Ans this is what I told him:

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Look Adam, We cure many diseases than ever before even cancer. As the result people live longer than ever before. We are making more money than ever beofore. We stay connected, travel and can do more things than ever before. I agree with you that we also have more people with depression but compare to what we achieved these are just minor side effects of the better world which will soon be solved by us as well.
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Of course he didn't agree with my view but as I don't want it ruin our conversation so I ended it in silence. However, I strongly believe that the world is getting better and better. It is the perception of the new world is different from people. It is all about the perception of human being.  Let's take a simple example, give a kid in Zimbabwe a bag of sweet, will that be his amzing gift ever?!. Do the same thing with an american kid, will be that just another cheap bag of sweet he/she can get from the super market?! Different background, social interaction and experience will define the perception of people of this new world. I personally strongly believe that the world is getting better and we in genaral are making the world a better place.