4th day. Facebook is activated :(

But I did make it to 4th day with social hook up apps. I need to activate facebook for an application I am developing require social logging. But I am gonna try to deactivate it today. 

But I feel really well and work really hard at the gym. Also talking a cute person keep saying I am sexy but honestly j don't know where it gonna go as that person is still so young with a kid mind.

3rd day. Sing to cure the pain babe😚

Was at the gym and received the text from a number that I didn't save asked whether I wanted to meet up for som "fun". I replied no with explaination and an coffee meet up offer however, it seems that coffee is not as interested as my dick so no reply. Shame as coffee is one of the top 10 british people like lol.

3rd day now. Not too bad at all. I didn't do much work but got something done and had a great workout session. The memory about that person is fading and the pain is not that bad. It is human nature I guess, we heal ourself quickly and also learn quickly to avoid hopefully.

2nd of no FaceBook and Social Hook Up

I made myself to the second day without Facebook and social hook up apps. It is difficult the whole day I look at my phone my iPad and my computer screen feeling like nothing to do but don't want to put my self to the old track again. I didn't do any much work for my project either but I did I make it to the second day! The pain yesterday is fading away and I also delete all the related things of that person on my phone. I don't want to see it, don't want it to remind me of the person doesn't deserve me. After next week that person gonna fly to Holland and totally disappear here but thinking about it still hurting but I won't let it stop my life and my great future ahead. 

Giving up social network!

Today is my first day without social network and hook up app. I decided to quit it yesterday after being blocked by someone I believe that I have falled for. I believe that this is the first time in my life I actually experience what is called "heart broken". And gosh I listen to "Only love can hurt can hurt like this" by Poloma Fairh many times but never actually feel any words of the song until now. Every single words in the songs just like "a knife cut through my soul". And for fuck sage I hate it, I hate what I feeling and i hate to be in this situation and yes it is fucking difficult to get through but what can I say. I need to get through and I will get through it. At the beginning everything I know it will end up like this but sex is addictive and no I cannot resist a "my type" kinda person even though it is clearly that person doesn't want anything else and can just switch different guys for different experience. So now I am ended up hear broken, fuckig down and keep thinking about the shit that I have done and all the sex that we had. However, thanks god I realise that I am still a guy with a heart and the hook up game is not for me neither the social network chaos. Today I quit them for the not the first time but will be the long time. Today I did it and I gonna use this blog to update myp progress and achievement every day to become a better person and finding the right person for myself. Today I didn't facebook or hook up apps. Today I still feel shit but I didn't come back the old shit!